Forever and a Day : A Memoir of Trauma, Identity and Breaking the Cycle

Abandoned by her mother, ghosted by her father, and silenced by her grandmother, Mary Fields grew up fractured by abuse and neglect.

Forever and a Day is Mary Fields’s unflinching memoir of survival, offering an intimate look at life with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) shaped by a childhood of abandonment, neglect, and the failures of the foster system. From a mother who signed letters with love but left her behind, to summers with a ghostlike father at the carnival, to the cold silence of her grandmother’s house, Mary’s experience is uniquely filtered through the lens of her "Protector" and "Little Mary," giving readers a firsthand account of living fractured yet resilient.

This isn’t only a story of trauma - it’s also about the small acts of kindness that kept her going, the grief that demanded she face old wounds, and the courage it takes to end generational cycles and become the parent she once needed.

Forever and a Day is for anyone who has ever felt too broken to be put back together, a reminder that you are not alone.